Summer

Wow. I just realised its been quite a while since I've been here.
Got this sudden urge to blog cuz I'm at a point in my life where I feel lost.
Currently halfway through with my attachment and I caught myself wondering, where I would be headed to next.

Mummy wants me to carry on with my studies, but I know that I have lost all interest in that.
Sounds silly right, I know.
But after working for so long, I just can't imagine going back to school. I don't have that discpline in me anymore.
It wouldn't be easy adjusting back to school and having to juggle my work at the same time.

Also, I'm contemplating on whether or not I should carry on here at the Intercontinental after my attachment is over.
Really love this place and the people here. I'm just not too sure if this would be the right field for me to start a career in.
The hotel industry just seems too, intimidating.
I watch my colleagues work so hard, its like they are willing to sell their lives to the hotel.
I'm so stuck, don't know what to do. Don't know what my next step is gonna be.


What is making things even worse is that the bf has been away for almost a month now.
His job is driving both him and I crazy. I can't stand being away from him for so long. It just doesn't feel right.
Its so hard to keep things going because we can hardly spend anytime together now.
When he is in singapore, our working hours are totally mis-matched and when he is overseas, our time zones are totally opposites.

At times I miss him so much I just sit there and start to tear.
Sounds so silly right. I'm just so used to having him around me and so used to "us" that when he isn't around, something always feels wrong.
There is no one to watch movies with me, no one to go grocery shopping with, no one to pamper and baby me, no one to cuddle me to sleep, no one to annoy me and no one to do all of the things he does.

When he told me that he wants to quit, I wanted to so badly agreed.
Yet on the other hand I know that I can't be selfish and just think for myself. Its our future, if not, his.
And so I keep persuading him to stay on, just to complete a year at the minimum.
For the better of him.

What else can I do but to suck it all up and pretend that I'm fine?
I just wanna lay in his arms and not move.


Alright for now. I'm getting a little naggy and this is getting a little lengthy.
Shall stop here. Toodles.


Where are you my love, now that summer has arrived

And may the odds be ever in your favour

Been a little too obsessed with The Hunger Games recently.

Don't know why I am always like that, first it was Twilight and now..... Katniss Everdeen & Peeta Mellark.

Watched the movie twice and finished all 3 books already, yea I'm kinda crazy.

It is probably because this story is a lot like this world we live in.

The rich being filthy rich and the poor being fucking poor.

The games itself is a reminder of how those less fortunate are fighting for their lives each day.

How they have to kill and survive just to get back home.

And us? Normal people like us.. Enjoying a day at the cinema, throwing our leftovers into the bin.

Being so unappreciative of what we have got.

So damn despicable.
Not trying to say that I'm all humble and thrifty or that I donate all my money to charity.

I splurge on myself and the people I love, no doubt.

And I don't think any of us should stop doing that.

But maybe, just so maybe.. 

We should all take a step back and be thankful for what we have.

For what I have.

My family, my boyfriend, my friends, my home, my job, my clothes and everything else.

I have no clue who my thanks are going out to, but to whoever is receiving them, thank you. 

Thank you for blessing the people I love.

The Hunger Games isn't just a book, its life as we know it.

With lots of love.

From the bottom of my heart

The bf is currently alone in China because of work.

It has been so for the past 10 days? Yea, its a 2 week trip.

Poor boy had to spend his birthday all alone in China.. *emo face*

Anyway, while he was away, my internship @ Intercontinental Hotel has started.

First week over already to be exact. 23 more weeks to go.

Can't believe I'm saying this but I actually am not enjoying myself as much as I would want to.

Maybe its because the job is very different from what I'd expected.

Nevertheless, the people there are really nice and friendly.

Made a few friends during orientation. 

Had some really good laughs with my Korean colleagues there.

But we're all in different departments and chances are, we wouldn't be able to spend much time together now that orientation is over.

When I go to work in a few hours time, it'll be back to business.

Can't wait for this internship to be over.

Well, on a side note, I have not left Lovedrunk yet.

Struggling to cope with the workload but I've got no other choice.

Intern's pay is as good as no fucking pay. Lol.

Damn pathetic. Work at Lovedrunk for one week = intern's pay for one month.

Can go fuck spider man.

Wednesday is nearing, which means the bf is coming back soon.

Really miss him a hell lot. Haven't been away from each other this long for quite awhile.

Kinda not used to it, but work has kept me way too busy and tired to think so much.

Alright, shall take a nap now before waking up at 4am for work.

FML.

That look in your eyes.

Happy Valentines

Can you feel that love in the air?

I love happy lovey-dovey festives like this.

An excuse for me to go shopping and to pamper the one I love.

This year, the bf got me folded-paper roses.

He told me real flowers will wither and die, but these wouldn't. 

And I said to him, "so I'll be able to keep them forever"

When I said that I meant both the flowers and him.

He will get old, wrinkled and eventually die.. but I'll keep him till the day comes.

Let's spend all our valentines together sweetheart.

Two-Fucking-Zero

Have not been blogging for quite awhile.

Cny is here & my birthday has just passed.

I'm 20. Yea, 2-fucking-0

I feel old. No, actually I still feel pretty young and lively.

I thought I would wake up the next day and wham! 

Feel old, but well no, it didn't happen.

Guess that's just how life works. 

It just happens.. You grow old without ever realizing it.

One day, I'll look into the mirror and see an old lady looking back at me.

Fuck.

Growing old aside, life has been pretty good.

Got accepted into Intercontinental Hotel for my attachment in March too!

Happy max max I swear.

The boyfriend got a job 2 weeks after his ORD and is already almost a month into his job.

That means I can shake leg soon.

Don't have to struggle and work so hard anymore. Yay!

Too many good things happening to me, please just let them last.

I'll be good, I promise.

Fingers interlocked.

Pretty angry girl

I realised I've been pretty angst recently.

Prolly because it was that time of the month and subsequently, I fell sick.

Really short-tempered and easily agitated.

And also very demanding towards the boyfriend.

Kinda feel bad when I pick a fight with him for no apparent reason when I'm moody.

But I don't know why I can't seem to control my emotions.

Need to give myself a tight slap. 

How can I be so mean to someone so dear?

Hate myself for being such a bitch.

Hate how I crave for so much attention from one person.

Hate it when I get emotional like a little girl because I can't get what I want.

Love how you love me so much

Phuuuuu-ket Island

On the way to the airport 

 In the hotel room

 Along Bangla Rd

 The tiger and I

 Patong Beach

 On the way to Jungceylon

 We are on...........

 An elephant!

 And then there's the dinosaur

 And the little girl w huge ass boobs

 Went up to see the big Buddha

 This was at Karon Beach

 Polka dots raincoat!

 Bf got the normal boring looking one

 Strolling strolling strolling..

Back in Phuket International Airport

Love holidays with the people I love.